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Wednesday, March 30, 2005

haix..

yday de maths test straight straight mark le.. return us de paper.. i got 10/20.. i noe im stupid.. go ahead n laugh at mi ba.. used to get good results but now like tt.. haix..

rained heavily after sch.. was some how drenched.. took cab wif mag n zoe to j8.. sat at mos crap n take pics.. saw someone looks like u.. felt like cryin tt very moment..

reached home at 5plus.. headache.. tink bcoz of da rain.. remember ya said 100plus can stop headache.. it reali helps..

oh well.. not much to say le.. bye bye..

some pics taken today..

mi n bb.. she's in mah spects..

dis silly gal perfect eye sight still wan kay siao wear spects..

blur..

us again..

mad mad.. :x oh, it was mag!

di n hua.. gay..

at mos.. kat n juju

corn soup..

zoe's shout outta

let u guess where r we..

can guess??

we r in da toilet! my bag extra sia..

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Tuesday, March 29, 2005

i've got on my own nerves!!!

tink im kinda crazy today.. reali crazy i mean.. giggle fer nothin, laugh fer nothin, make funny noises n attitudin ppl.. im juz simply siao manx.. bring mi to woodbridge!!..

wanna stay happy.. but i realised dis izzit de way.. haix.. no use havin fake smile on my face.. n sad deep down in my heart..

was late fer sch dis morning.. haix..
had maths test today.. lotsa careless mistakes.. lost lotsa marks.. i even left out one part.. found de distance but forgot about de speed.. haix..

reached home at 4plus.. sat on my bed n stone fer 1 whole hr..

haix.. dun feel quite well again today..

juz realised tt ya cared alot fer mi.. worried about mi not gettin good results, worried about mi not payin attention in class.. always help mi in a way or another.. thx fer lendin mi ur chem text to re-write my notes.. thx vone.. thx fer cheerin mi up everyday..

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Monday, March 28, 2005

sian..

so sian..

i juz wish im not in dis world..

i dunnoe wad de hell went wrong, everything juz come at one shot..

i cant take it..

cried at home fer real long.. i juz cant stop cryin..

i hav lotsa probs again..

i nid someone to hear mi out

i nid someone to be dere fer mi

i dun wan to be left alone

i wan u..

i need u..

i dare not tok to u, u r de one always tok to mi

u tell mi u hav probs, wad else more can i say?

u r not mine ani more.. i wish i could be dere fer u..

i cant help but cry..

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Sunday, March 27, 2005

i hate dis feelin!

i wanna cry

but i know once i start cryin i'll nv stop

i juz wan someone to be dere fer mi..

i hate de feelin of bein sad..

i hate de feelin of not smillin..

i hate de feelin of bein left alone..

i hate de feelin of cryin alone..

simply juz hate it -

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Saturday, March 26, 2005

some pics taken..

bb n mi

awww.. hair so messy...

zoe , bb n mi.. actually got mag beside mi de!!

da four of us..

zOe n mi..

ahaha.. mi.. like dis pic.. like model leh..

de secnery very nice leh..

merlion.. abit blur la..

esplanade.. cant reali c thou..

dis bridge....... 'lets guess wad colour car will pass by' 'dark blue!' 'white!'

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yday's outin..

didnt go escape wif vone they all coz not feelin well.. felt bored at home den decided to go city hall alone.. so qiao.. met bb, mag, zoe, mao, hadi n ben dere.. den went wif them..

we watched movie.. the eye10.. stupid show.. ten ways of seein ghost.. its not scary at all.. but some parts is suddenly come out de den will shock dao.. some parts very gross.. dun dare to c.. mao sat beside mi.. he was laughin at da way man.. den deres a group of siao lang in front of us.. sho noisy seh.. de gals shout fer no reason.. wanna attract attention onli.. i very fed up i shouted tiam to them lo..

after tt we go suntec eat.. mao left first coz he gonna go to his chruch.. den de rest of us walk around.. when we gonna leave tt time bb n mag very bu she de.. they cried.. omg.. gurls.. its not as if we not gonna c each other ani more ma.. they wanted to stay longer but cant coz they hav to go da chruch too..

mi n zoe go esplanade dere walk walk.. de nite secenery very nice.. walk da same rote i used to walk.. saw a couple takin weddin pic.. be reminded of sth.. wanted to cry but i control my tears.. took some pics.. but cannot reali c coz my camera lousy.. walked zoe to raffles mrt station den i take cab home..

was cryin on de way back..

- i l o s t y e w -

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Friday, March 25, 2005

no title...

stupid blogdrive.. cannot dun put title wan..

yday study chem until 4 plus.. ai seh.. den i woke up at 7 sia.. take cab pia go sch.. lucky managed to reach juz in time.. im last wan to go in den da gate close le..

no nid to say le also noe wad i do in class rite.. haix..

chem test.. tink should be able to pass ba.. thou suddenly forget how to do n get distracted by sth.. haix.. den i go c vone wan..

changed class seatin plan.. mi sit behind seh.. den vone n ming yang beside mi.. i wanna sit in front but no more place liao.. : l

took 159.. reached home at 4 plus.. got tuition at 7.30.. i do 8 qsn use 1 hour sia.. dunnoe wad im doin also.. haix..

wasnt reali feelin well today duh.. headach n flu leh.. tink bcoz of yday get caught in da darn rain..

actually goin escape wif vone they all tml but not feeln well.. not gonna pay $16 go in vomit.. ya guys enjoy ba..

haix..

- s i n c e y o u h a v e b e e n g o n e -

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Wednesday, March 23, 2005

...

didnt sleep again last nite.. cant sleep den call allan kor tok tok awhile.. someone called mi at 2 plus.. put down when i wanna pick up.. den nv call back also.. dunnoe hu lai de.. haix.. get out of bed at 6.50 dis mornin sia.. but lucky nv late fer sch..

yea, ya should noe wad i do in sch la.. sleep lo.. haix.. siao wan.. today de air con in class broke down.. darn hot n stuffy.. keep on sweatin den havin headache too..

actually can finish early de den stupid kopi zek tok sho much.. den finish at 3.20.. after tt pei di go take back his mp3 from mr yu.. vone they all jio mi go lunch wif them but dun feel like goin den went home alone.. took 159.. suay.. walk halfway back den heavy rain.. was drenched like siao leh..

reached home at 4 plus.. first ting i do is wash toilet.. den go rest awhile coz not feelin well.. woke up at 9 plus study chem coz tml got test.. usin my new textbook.. i c until so sian.. inside nothin.. no notes.. dunnoe how to study.. i wan back my old textbook.. haix..

still wonderin hu called mi at 2 plus last nite.. hu ah??.... y put down sho fast? y dun wan call mi again?

i
reali
do
wanna
cry
out
loud..

but i hate da feelin of cryin..
no one to stop my tears from now on..

- p l z d u n t r y s o h a r d t o s a y g o o d b y e -

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Tuesday, March 22, 2005

dun wanna tok too much...

well, didnt sleep last nite.. was still lyin in bed 6.45 dis mornin.. knew gonna be late but still lyin.. kanna dragged out of mah bed by mum.. dun feel like goin to sch.. was lazy n sian.. some more dun wanna c sho mani ppl den took cab to sch..

slept da whole day in class.. when i say whole day, i mean WHOLE DAY.. vone havta find mr ng after sch.. so had lunch n went home wif zoe n mag..

reached home at 4.. stayed in da toilet fer whole one hour.. was washin it duh.. den go study..

went j8 to meet hong da at 6.. eat dinner at mac den pei him go buy his fren prezzie n shop shop around.. rich boi.. buy sho mani tings use his atm card dunnoe how mani times.. knowin tt mah chem text book lost he buy mi new wan.. but got tiao jian wan wor.. i muz study hard n pass all subjects de whole year.. left at 8 plus.. fancy him gotta meet daryl still pei mi home.. wait daryl gan him seh..

first ting i do is open my book.. study.. trynna keep mah mind occupied.. otherwise i will wonder away again..

thx hongda.. i promise will study hard n get good results fer u to c.. dun worry about mi..
thx vone fer accompanyin mi de whole day.. thx fer tokin to mi.. but sori, i kinda ignored ya coz im sleepin..

i cannot sit still.. i cannot be quiet.. i cannot be doin nothin.. will start tinkin.. haix.. i dun wanna tink.. i dun wanna cry.. will start cryin whenever i tink of ya, whenever i c ur pic..

kkz.. not gonna say ani more..

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Sunday, March 20, 2005

why???

why
why
why...

why do i hav dis kind of feelin?
why do i cry when i dun wish to?
why everything seems so wrong?
why things become like tt?
why like tt?

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